Oftentimes when I tell Emily something, she looks at me and says, "huh?". Jeff and I have even wondered at times if she has trouble hearing. But I don't think that's it. I think she's a normal 3 year old who is too caught up in her own life and its activities to take time to listen to what I have to say. And sometimes I think I talk too fast or say things that she's just too young to really understand.
Sound familiar? I wonder how many times God says something to me and all He gets in response is "Huh?" I get too caught up in this Earth to hear what He's telling me about eternal things. Or maybe He's telling me something that my brain just doesn't quite comprehend yet.
Or, sometimes I'm just plain disobedient. I choose to "get things done" instead of obeying Him by spending more time in prayer and the Word. I choose to do things in my timing instead of being bold and sharing my faith with others in His timing. I choose to be filled with my flesh rather than with the Holy Spirit.
So many times when Emily is disobedient, I think, "How can I make her obey (take a nap, sit at the dinner table, follow directions, whatever)?" But the thing is I can't. God gave us free will, and she makes her own decisions just like the rest of us. I can, and do, pray that she'll have an obedient heart, but I know her parents, and I know she has our same strong will.So, when Emily is disobedient or when she looks at me and says, "huh?" or just plain ignores me, she is showing me a pretty good reflection of me.
Father, forgive us. Thank You for being slow to anger, abounding in love.
"...Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the Lord? To obey is better than sacrifice...." (I Samuel 15:22)